Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Do-over?

This is a quick little note, but following on my post yesterday that portrayed all the good that has been going on, I feel compelled to just write a few lines about today...this way you can't say that I didn't warn you :)

So today was epic meltdown day.  I figure any child torn from his family, stuck into ours and left for long enough is entitled to one major freak-out, and it arrived today.  I should have seen it coming when I got a call from school at 9:15am, and I wish I had realized it was brewing and handled things differently, but alas, only hindsight is 20/20.

There were tears- not just mine- screaming, kicking, biting, throwing, dumping, tearing, smashing...it was u.g.l.y.  I lectured, I guilted, I bargained, I prayed, I yelled...it was nobody's shining moment.

The one ray of humor in it all was that as I was standing, literally holding the door shut while our little buddy calmed down enough to be around the other children, one of the kids handed me the mail, and I opened a beautiful Christmas card from the Safe Families staff that thanked me for "sharing the peace of our home with a child"...more like a PIECE of our home the way he was bashing the walls.  But that little card really did give me enough pause to take a few deep breaths and even crack a smile.

Anyhoo...by the end of it, we both said our apologies and it was all hands on deck to clean up the disaster zone.  It left me feeling really shaken up and wishing I had handled things differently, but in the there are no do-overs, only grace.

Here's to tomorrow being a new day.  Sigh...

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